My Diary, My Hideout

Weeee

2012-01-27T19:11:00.000+11:00

Weee~~~
CNY holiday is over~
next week back to work.
did u all get a lot of angpaos?
im going to Cameron Highland early feb,
then going to KL mid of feb. ^^ so excited!!
20 more days til we meet :) hehe

A thousand knives

2012-01-21T16:57:00.001+11:00

we argued today..
i hate this feeling.
i hate it when we argue.
it always makes me so sad and end up crying.

i guess distance is tearing us apart slowly.
we live different lives.
doing different things everytime.
thats how misunderstandings occur.

he said he doesnt feel my love as much anymore..
he said i dont care much about him anymore..
those words stabbed my heart like a thousand knives.

everyone knows that chinese new year is just a few days away.
now that im jobless, i always go shopping for chinese new year preparation with mom.
all the food and drinks for chinese new year.
chinese new year clothes..
maybe in his family, he didnt need to help preparing those things, cuz he got work.
but not in my family.
i have to clean my house, clean the car,
cook for my mom, wash the clothes.
cuz mom got work so im the one who's free to do these.
and we get so caught up preparing for chinese new year,
no time to talk or maybe asked less questions like "have u eaten? are u home yet?"
he thinks that i dont care abt him anymore :(
he should have stood in my position and try to understand me..
i love him so so sooo very much..
which part of it doesn't he understand?

if he's saying that i dont love him as much anymore based on these small things,
i have a lot to say about his way of expressing love to me too.
if you really love your girl..
dont u want her to be happy?
sometimes u can be the one who care for her first.
don't wait til she ask u.
you got work and you are very tired after work..
she got stuff to do and she's tired from it too..
sometimes i feel that his work is more important than me.
i don't really remember if he's every asked how my day was.
"how's ur day?" "wat did u do?" "did u enjoy your day?" never heard from his mouth before.
but he expects me to ask him these to show my caring to him.
he didn't know i've been out shopping for his secret valentines present for days, i still haven't chosen the right present for him.
seriously dislike this feeling right now.
i feel so sad and misunderstood :(
i tried to explain to him, he said "ok then, you win"
my heart straight away broken into pieces.
T__T

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

2012-01-13T04:04:00.002+11:00

valentines day 2012

2012-01-13T03:43:00.000+11:00

i want a special Valentines day!!!!
it's my first valentines day ever..i want it to be a surprise n special,
something that'll be kept in my memory forever.
i want whole day special.. dun wan just a drink or wat..

goooo..

plan!! blek.

happy chinese new year~~ !!

2012-01-13T00:59:00.000+11:00

农历新年快到了，还剩下不到两个礼拜，
大家都买了新衣吗？
im so excited hehe, so happy >:D
everytime during chinese new year i get so excited,
cuz all my cousins and aunts and uncles will come back to penang from ipoh and butterworth.
we will dress up together with my cousins, "扮靓靓" hehe.
and we will go “拜年”, and also go Kek Lok Si at night, to look at the lights..
weeee....so happy, hehe. ^^

after CNY, early feb, we will go Cameron for a 2-day trip,
after that, i will go KL again.. :P
weeee... nice nice ^^

but after CNY im gonna have to start making my bro's room into a music studio for teaching.
and start taking in students.
cant wait~!! :)

:P

2012-01-10T19:56:00.001+11:00

l.o.v.e

2012-01-10T03:06:00.001+11:00

♥

2012

2012-01-04T02:14:00.000+11:00

:D hehe, how did u guys count down and spent your last day of 2011?

mine was very special and i love it so much!

unforgettable :)

Vincent came to Penang to spend 3 days with me.

i took him to the beach on the first day,

it was 31st of December 2011,

and we counted down by the beach,

watching fireworks together.

hahhaha look at him :P

i buried his feet in the sand keke..

silly :P

the fireworks were very beautiful,

but the person beside you means more at this special moment.

it was my happiest time ^^

throughout the rest of the 2 days,

we went to quite a few places.

went for movies..

went for food..

oh he loves penang food so much ^^ haha..

im glad he likes it.

went to Straits Quay,

and also many places.

And also my house. :D

We spent some quality time together,

hehe, missing him now.. :P

i let him drive my mom's car one night, haha :P

this is me at home..with my teddy~

muaackks :P

miss ya <3

i hav to wait til february only get to see him again..

:( so sad..

but its ok, time flies :)

im waiting n waiting... n waiting~~~~~

feb hurry come!!

哎。。

2011-12-07T22:26:00.002+11:00

嘴里说“哎呀我不管你们啦”，可是其实什么都要管。
跟我们说“你自己决定”，其实什么都要帮我决定。。。
我。。
好。。。
累。。。。
:(
为什么回家后会觉得更累？
妈妈给的压力，慢慢地一层层压在我身上。
才回家两天，就已经被她安排好做这个做那个。。
原本说过想在吉隆坡找工，她也说ok，
可是自己已经在槟城帮我安排了工作。。
我真的很纳闷阿！！！
不想被她牵着走，可是不走她又不开心。。
나어떻게~！！
迟早有一天我一定会爆发的。。
等着瞧。。＞＜

:)

2011-12-04T20:24:00.002+11:00

heheheh :D wat are u guys doing at the moment?
im having tea with a special someone ^^
<3

So long, farewell.

2011-12-01T02:25:00.000+11:00

im so sad..
feeling so heavy to leave melbourne.
2 more days and i'm off, back to malaysia.
Although still got 2 more nights, but i'm so emotional tonight,
looking back those photos and the people i've met and places i've been within these 3 years in melbourne,
tears cant stop rolling down my cheek.
:'(
i hate separation.
i hate parting.
i hate goodbyes.
i always had to do so since i was young.
biding goodbye with friends and family,
meeting new friends and getting close to them,
and then its another goodbye and farewell.
the friends i've made here, the people i've met,
friends that walk me through rough times,
people that taught me lessons of life,
now i have to bid farewell to them again,
and start a new life at home,
saying hi to friends that once were close and now have become stranger.
Who knows when will we meet again?
all that's left to keep,
are photos in my camera,
pictures in my mind,
and feelings in my heart.
i hope they too will keep those memory of me in their heart,
and someday years and years later,
when we finally meet again,
we'll tell each other how much we missed each other.
ok, i have to stop now.
have to stop the tears :'(
so long my friends.

i will miss u so so much.

my room

2011-11-26T01:45:00.002+11:00

wanna see how messy my room was??

i had to pack those boxes and send them back..

omg finally sent them 2 days ago..

wanna see how clean my room is now??

hehe i mean..MESSY!!

sent my boxes, now im packing my luggages..

hahahhaha!! my room is a mess XD

keke :P

korean food

2011-11-26T01:40:00.001+11:00

yesterday my friend came over to my place, and we cooked lunch together.

we went out to buy some groceries, didn't know wat to cook or wat to eat,

so we walked around and ended up at a korean grocery shop,

and decided to cook korean food :D

what are we gonna cook??

Tapokki!!

(Spicy Rice Cake)

and also kimchi soup,

but she wanted to eat korean dumplings as well..

so we added into the soup.

in the end we steamed some korean dumplings as well.

yum yum!! we ate soooo much!!

dreams? nightmares?

2011-11-23T14:32:00.000+11:00

i woke up 3 times last night and fell back asleep,
i had 3 different dreams the whole night. lol..
there were many ppl in my dreams..
including a puppy hahaha..
the first one was like nightmare..
i dreamed that i was pregnant LOL..
and my mom's mad at me.
the second one was abt a friend who became rich.
the third one was me sleeping hugging a puppy on my bed ^^
but then the dog pointed to somewhere beside my bed n said something..
creeped me out T__T hate it.

but seriously..how can u hav 3 different dreams in 1 night??
haih..

next friday!!

2011-11-21T17:43:00.000+11:00

hehe.. i can now officially say that im going back, NEXT FRIDAY!!
woohooo...
been waiting last night to post this, cuz if i update my blog last night (Sunday),
i'll have to say "the Friday after next week" or "2 weeks from now".
haha and if i post today (monday) it'll officially be just "Next Friday" :D
cuz it seems soo close keke.
haih my room..im lazy to pack d la..sien :(
help me!!!!!!!
i miss going to grandma's house.
i already can hear my uncle's wife's laughter.
she very sayang me de..although she doesnt say it, hehe.
last time when i went back, my uncle brought out his wedding dinner video,
that was like many years ago, that time i was still in kindergarten.
hahahaa.. last time de hairstyle was so epic XD
but his wife so pretty.
my cousin said "wahh my mom last time so pretty ahh" LOL..
means now... :x
^__^ asahh! going bak going bakk..yeahhhhh :D

new song

2011-11-18T01:03:00.002+11:00

addicted to Baek Ji Young these days..
especially her song "That Woman" woo.. so nice :)
hope u like it too.
ENJOY!

^__^

2011-11-18T01:03:00.000+11:00

are u excited?
I AMM!!!!
i only have 2 weeks left..
exactly 2 weeks left. hehe.
i just finished packing those boxes that will be sent home by Monday.
wonder how much i'll hav to use here.. :( should be around 200 dollars , haih.
i have to pay almost 300 for my landlord for bills n everything.
and also i just got a letter, i got fined by train inspector, 180 dollars.. T___T
SHIIITTT....im so broke now.
was thinking of buying some clothes before i go back.
now i hav to wait and see how much money i have left :(
SAD huhuhuhu...but still, excited!! hehe. ^__^

huai ren..

2011-11-16T03:01:00.002+11:00

huai ren sick d..no more huai ren for now..only got 生病的 huai ren, huhuhuhu.. so kelian..

i had a dream

2011-11-15T00:29:00.000+11:00

i had a dream last nite..
hehe it was a very nice dream, but i dun think vincent wants to hear this. hahaha.
i dreamed of Lee Seung Gi again!!!! XD
this is the 2nd time. and this time together with Lee Seung Gi, Uhm Tae Woong was in my dream too!!
woohoo :P 2 korean handsome actors in my dream at the same time, hhahaha..
it was awesome..but dun remember wat the dream was abt. hehe.
:D

wohoo

2011-11-13T00:13:00.000+11:00

pack pack pack~~~~ packingg!!
2 and a half more weeks left till i go home!!
i've been packing since a couple of weeks ago.
pack here pack there, packing everywhere! :P
erm not really :P i just pulled out things that need to be packed, and put the empty boxes beside them,
and leave them there on the floor hahaha.. soo lazy to pack, til today.
i packed 3 boxes man!!!
they are all small boxes.
but i think it'll cost a lot to send back T-T
i need to know their weight before i send them, so i can calculate around how much i need to spend here.
^__^ excited!! hehe..

dear Mr.S

2011-11-09T15:41:00.001+11:00

muaackkss :P hehe...

大坏人！blek!

clumsy me..

2011-11-02T20:29:00.000+11:00

knocked myself on my head and my eye 2 or 3 days ago..
i was trying to open the closet, but mayb i opened it too hard, the closet door slammed into my face..
T__T soo painful, almost broke my glasses. i think my glasses "senget" already bcoz of that.
now the upper bone of my left eye still hurts.. a bit swollen d my left eye, u can see my eye lid suddenly become thick haha.. stupid me.
still hurts now :(

T__T

2011-11-02T15:15:00.000+11:00

i woke up in shock today.
Kelvin called me, thats why i woke up to pick up his call.
and was shock to see that it was 2.30pm!!!
I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO YUM CHA AT 11.30am!!!!!!!!
so i answered the phone and gave a loud "OMG" to Kelvin..
and he said "you still sleeping?!"
yeah i was T__T
and he said "we just finish eating half an hour ago"
i wanted to cry out d..
how can i miss something that i've been waiting for such a long time!!
i cant believe i missed yum cha!!
but that goodness they all ate..
if they waited for me til 2 something, i'll feel super guilty.

Couldn't sleep last night.. i only fell asleep at 8 something this morning.
And my phone was on silent.
Maybe it's because i only fell asleep a couple of hours before they called,
i was sooo deeply asleep that time. and my phone was on silent, i didn't hear it vibrate at all!!
12 missed calls and 12 messages..i didn't hear them all!!
I tried to call my darling and cuz i heard frm kelvin that she's grocery shopping near my house with her bf..
so i called her and left her a message..and apologize for not making to yum cha.
she din pick up or reply.
so i asked my other fren who was with her to ask her to chek her phone.
and still she din reply.
haih...T__T my darling dump me d...
since she got bf now.. she never hang out alone with me d.
asked her out yesterday, she said she's busy. so i tot she had work, didn't dare to disturb her..
and then she asked me to go out on wednesday(today), she asked me last week. but then she said she's not very sure if she's free, but will confirm with me again. so i waited and waited.. til now she din say a word abt hanging out.. then i found out that she didnt have work yesterday , she was out with bf whole day yesterday.. i understand that she wanna go "pak toh" with bf.. so i din say anything.. but then i found out again that today she dun need to work..i was a bit sad loh..she din even think of me, i guess she's reserving today for her bf as well.. :( so sad.
last time before they got together, she'd always hang out with me, wont go anywhere without me..
now? she's going everywhere without me.. T___T
YeeMin went back to malaysia.. now my darling also dump me, now only left the girl who lives very far away frm me..but she cant always hang out too. suddenly feel very lonely all of the sudden.. feeling lonely all over again. haih...

and i still cant believe i missed yum cha T__T

exam's over!!

2011-10-31T19:16:00.001+11:00

yeaaahh~~~~ i finished my exam!!
had 2 exams today.. both were hard subjects for me,
but i stayed up many nights to study..
and the first exam wasn't too bad, i know most of the answers and i wrote a lot on that paper.. haha.
the second one... T_T i dont really know how to do.. but i think my assignment will help pull up the marks
for this exam.. since i think i did good on the assignment.
will go get my assginemnt end of this week. PRAY HARD!!
sigh.
First year when i came here, i got all HD(high distinction) and DI (distinction) for all subjects.
Second year first semester mostly DI and CR(credit) and 1 HD.
Second year second semester though.. i got Credit and P(pass)... and 1 fail :(
Third year first semester, i got all P (pass), then now im repeating my failed subjects, i hope i can pass this time.
my grades got worse and worse :(
used to kind of 'compete' with another asian girl.. always aim for HD and DI, but now as long as i pass im happy. first 2 years, my results were top in class. 2nd year 2nd semester everything changed though.
but after that i tried to catch up.
the subjects got harder and harder..and i start to wonder to myself if im that stupid.
why cant i understand what others can? is it because of english since the rest of the class are all local Australians.
i wanted to get a tutor to teach me after class, but it costs like 30 dollars an hour..and i dun wanna spend the money, so i tried to get help from classmates, haha, turns out the one who did assignment with me wasn't very good too. but at least a bit better than me. but i stick with her because she's a nice girl, not like others.
sometimes they can be quite racist u know..
sigh..what to do. that's life. You have Ups, you will sure have Downs.
you can't always be at the best all the time.
haha i remember Jan told me that i'm the type of person who puts a lot of effort in one thing,
but the results will always be not as good. i guess so.
my assignemnts.. is basically a FAIL.
i suck at essays. and citations. and finding musical examples.
even if i think i did great..the results will always just linger between fail and pass...it wont go further.
so this semester i got help from a classmate, and we did our assignments together. i hope it turns out good.
good luck!! fighting!!

Now i can start packing, hehehe!

the moon

2011-10-24T13:46:00.000+11:00

really like this pic. we should do this sometime.

12星座最好的妻子排名(hahaha)

2011-10-24T13:45:00.003+11:00

12星座最好的妻子排名

第四名

狮子座

高贵、开朗又耀眼的她

真的很吸引人

但是那股属于皇室的傲气

却让很多仰慕者望之却步

其实

在高傲的外表下

她藏着的是一颗单纯又多愁善感的心

The first four words you see..

2011-10-18T20:36:00.001+11:00

my first four words are:

Naive

Patient

Elegant

Sweet

lol.

What's yours??

Karaoke session

2011-10-18T20:32:00.000+11:00

Went karaoke-ing yesterday, the whole afternoon from 1-6pm, hahaha, it was fun ^^

I chose Lee Seung Gi's song and my friend saw him and she screamed!!

""AARRGHHH he's so cute!!" of coz lar~~~ :P

we didn't take any photo tho, only took it after it hahaha.

After that we walked around the city, and walked into a korean grocery shop.

OMG i saw the green canned soft drinks from the drama "My Girlfriend is a Gumiho",

and i bought it!!! hehehe~~~

see see see~~!! this is the one! :D hehhee..

wahahhahahhaa ♥

I'm so crazy about korean dramas and Lee Seung Gi!!

I CANNOT WATCH KOREAN DRAMA or look at Lee Seung Gi, I'll go so crazy about them!!

I have to stay away from them~! aarrghh!!!

I'm losing my mind!!

oh wait,

Lee Seung Gi got one song called Losing My Mind too.

wahahahahaha!! ♥♥♥

呵呵

2011-10-17T03:02:00.000+11:00

last nite was silly..sorry.. :P
只是偶尔不开心时想让你哄哄我。。
我真的没有生气。
^^

hehe..

2011-10-17T02:59:00.000+11:00

im suddenly craving for cakes~~!!
craving for Taro cakes!!
never knew yam would be so nice hehe..
i had it during my birthday and i'm forever craving for it now!! XD

Mmmmm...

Yyyuuuummm~~ ma si so~

*like!*

呜呜呜呜。。。

2011-10-16T03:13:00.000+11:00

他说我是懒人。。T___T
原本没有很好的心情马上便更糟。。

十月十五号

2011-10-15T02:10:00.000+11:00

这两天不知道为什么有点忧郁的感觉。。

带点伤感，带点莫名的心痛。

人家说一个人的心情会随着月亮而改变。

特别是在月圆的时候（还有大姨妈要来之前，呵呵），会特别伤感。

今晚一直听伤心的歌曲。最近看了“我的女友是九尾狐”，里面有很多好听的歌，

我都下载了，可是都是伤感的歌，今晚也不例外的一直听。

刚才看了一看日历，还有一个月又十五天就到十二月了。。

原本应该很兴奋的我，把一些必须做的事情写在日历上，又算一算，

发现剩下的时间不多。。要离开墨尔本了。。突然伤感了起来。

在这里三年了。。这里是让我独立和练习习惯一个人的地方。

在这里经历的事情，伤心的比开心的多。。

每一个地方都有让我逃避烦恼和泪水的回忆。

当然也有开心的回忆，这些回忆我永远都不会忘记。

它们是让我成长的重要的一部分。

找一天一定要去回一些已经很久没有去的地方拍拍照，

去见一些很久不见的人，跟他们说再见。

不知道什么时候才有机会再回来了。。

刚才在FB看到了一些朋友生日的照片。

昨天是她的生日，拍了一些照放上FB。

生日蛋糕是朋友给她的惊喜，

特地跑去买给她的。

上个礼拜去另一个朋友的生日party,

他请了很多朋友来，

可是生日蛋糕也是人家买来给他的。

再想想我的生日party..

什么都要自己准备，

连生日蛋糕也是自己买的。

想起就伤心。:(

明年的生日会是怎样的呢？

去年的很开心，朋友会帮我买我喜欢的口味的蛋糕。

好想念他们哦。。

那时在家开party..妈妈还帮我煮东西，呜呜呜我想妈妈。。

其实我不是在意蛋糕是不是我自己买，

只是一想到这个，就会发现原来身边其实没有几个知心的朋友。。

现在才开始慢慢跟两三个女生很要好，又要分开了。

唉～

今天心情很糟。。可是哭不出来。。

这两天一直做恶梦，梦到的都是伤心或则灾难的东西。

甚至有一次在梦里哭到撕心裂肺，醒来发现脸上真的有泪水。。

昨晚梦到地震，我跟一堆朋友一起去Genting玩，住在hotel，结果hotel倒了。

我快疯了。我现在根本不想睡，因为不知道又会梦到什么东西。

我只想快点回家，家才有安全感。

今天心情很糟。。希望有个人陪陪我。T__T

My Girlfriend is a Gumiho

2011-10-14T00:19:00.001+11:00

I love the drama so much!! OMG the last episode made me used so much tissue, cried like shit T__T

It's a story about a man who fell in love with a nine-tailed-fox(in a human form).

If you haven't watch it, YOU SHOULD!!!

see the actress so pretty !!

Lee Seung Gi + Shin Min Ah

Lee Seung Gi don't cry~~~~

LOVE HER!!

Gumiho~~! I like gumiho's tails hehe~

AAHHH~~!! *melt*

so sweet ^^

go watch!! im so in love with this drama. hehe.

drama-ing

2011-10-13T03:33:00.000+11:00

I'm so busy trying to finish the drama i'm in love with at the moment..
Its a Korean drama called "My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho" or "My Girlfriend Is A Nine-Tailed-Fox"
IM SOOO IN LOVE WITH IT!!!
it was out last year but i didn't have the time to watch till now.
LEE SEUNG GI and SHIN MIN AH... perfect match!
so in love with lee seung gi hehehe.. dun get jealous k xD
I'll update more stuff once im done with this drama. hohohoho its so addictive.
I've updated my current favorite song, it's one of the soundtracks from the drama hahah!!
hope u like it. :)

嘻嘻

2011-10-10T04:05:00.000+11:00

我们常听人家说“年龄不是问题”，今天从我朋友那里听到完整的，他说，当你遇到真爱的时候，

身高，不是距离。
体重，不是压力。
年龄，不是问题。

体重不是压力啊！！赞！呵呵 :P

saturday

2011-10-07T15:17:00.000+11:00

woohhooo im so excited!! :D
tomororw going to the Tulip Festival!
It's the Irish weekend this weekend, so they will have all those Irish things.
I must bring my camera!! ^^
But i checked the weather for tomrrow, :( there's gonna be rain til late afternoon..
Hope the weather forecast is inacurrate, haahaha..
cuz they said that its gonna be storm today but not even a single drop of rain.. :P ehhehe..
After the tulip festival i'll be going to a friend's house for his birthday party.
i'll take nice n pretty pictures and upload them tomorow :D
stay tuned!!

after all the fun i'm gonna have to start working hard on my studies..
exam's next month!
fighting!

写歌-ing

2011-10-06T13:28:00.000+11:00

想写一首开心的歌，
可是怎么写来写去都写不到我想要的那种感觉。。:(
还是写伤感的歌曲比较有感觉。
啊啊啊我不要！！！
不管是英文还是中文歌，我都比较习惯写悲伤的。。
现在开始要试试看写开心的，活泼的。:)
加油！！

每天笑一笑，心情会更好~！

2011-10-06T12:47:00.001+11:00

有一隻狼寶寶

一生下來不吃肉只吃素

它父母很擔心

結果一天

看到狼寶寶追一隻兔子

父母很欣慰

然后狼寶寶抓住兔子說：

把胡蘿蔔交出來!!!……

减肥~~

2011-10-06T12:44:00.002+11:00

hahahah vincent sin~! xD

cute pics

2011-10-05T00:00:00.000+11:00

argghh so cute!!! i want a pet :(

i wanna spend my christmas in KL.. but cant, cuz i have to attend a dinner that time :(

Manja kitty.. hehehe!!

soooo cute!!! little baby ^^

Sunny day

2011-10-04T23:08:00.000+11:00

wohoooo its finally sunny and warm!!

it was so windy and rainy and even storm for days last week.

Took these pics yesterday while i was waiting for the bus..hahaa..

I like sunny weather!!

love taking pics too :D

Le Sun!!

i really like Melbourne to be honest..

I'm happy that i'm going home soon,

but feel sad leaving here too..

I really like the weather, the people, and the environment.

The houses, flowers and gardens everywhere~~

I'll come back for a visit when I have the chance.

♥

Say Cheese~~!!

2011-10-03T04:30:00.000+11:00

Im in love with instant cameras and toy cameras that have special effects ♥

http://www.theclickshop.net/products/

Check out these cameras! If I'm rich, you'll see my big collection of cameras!

I especially like Instax instant cameras, and "Fish Eyes", and "Blackbird, fly" , "Diana F+".

Wohoo if only i'm rich. HAHA!!

Cameras ♥

Coffee~

2011-10-02T03:39:00.003+11:00

Which one's your choice??

Royal Melbourne Show 2011

2011-10-02T03:06:00.001+11:00

Around 3 something, me and my friend we went out for lunch, then went to meet the others in the city cuz we're going to the Royal Melbourne Show.
The Royal Melbourne Show is an amusement park, and its very big.
It's only held once a year for a period of time.
It's got all the fun rides(but no very high ones like the ones in Genting).
It's got animals (big and small) that you can feed and pet and play with..
And also show bags. (it's like bags of goods you buy, but only during this period of time they are cheap and comes with many other things in the bag)
http://www.royalshow.com.au/

So anyway. We went there. And i bought a show bag hehe. (inside there is a bag, and some magazines and lotion n cleansing stuff) All these for only 10 dollars!
There were 12 of us. 6 guys 6 girls.
We saw fireworks and it was sooo cool n pretty!! It was set on a big field, and there were fireworks blowing up in the sky, and also on the field, there were 2 guys holding fireworks/firecrackers and spinning it, i dont know how to describe it to u but it was so pretty seeing the sparks of the fireworks in their hands..
and of course the music was awesome too, the fireworks blow up according to the music.. when the music reach its climax then the fireworks will reach its climax too. but i didnt take any pic. haha!!
just hope i can watch it with my loved ones again someday. :)

After the fireworks they went to play "ghost house". I didn't go. XD
Heard it was freaking scary. hahahaa.
While waiting for them I went to talk to an Asian girl who was on a game stall,
asking for ppl to come play to win some soft toys.
Hahaha she's a Taiwanese. And we talked for a while, then when the others came out, they thought I know that girl.. XD lol funny. I was like.."no, i just met her. im bored so we just talked" hahaha.
After that we went to take supper..and came home.
It was quite fun but heck we didn't play much :(
I didn't ride a single game! i thought they wanna go roller coaster but no one went.
They all just sat there wasting time.. talking to each other..taking photos..resting..
we could hav played many games when we were wasting time there.
but oh well, the games were expensive. roller coaster was like 10 dollars for 1 round.
Wanna go Genting next time :(
Who wanna go wif mee??

♥♥

2011-10-02T01:43:00.003+10:00

girlfriends

2011-10-02T01:40:00.000+10:00

♥

Recipe for Long Distance Relationships

2011-09-30T15:25:00.006+10:00

sorry its a bit small, but u can always click this picture and zoom in to read the words. cheers!

just sharing some pics..

2011-09-30T04:07:00.001+10:00

would u do these wif me? ♥

totally me!! :P

who wanna be my cuddle partner? hehe..

63 days

2011-09-30T04:04:00.000+10:00

OMG 63 days only!!! my diet plan!!!
i have to 加油 and NOT EAT!!
fighting fighting!!!

vincent sin i will not lose on the deal :P blek!!

first time..

2011-09-28T15:59:00.001+10:00

There's a lot of "first times" i wanna get rid of.

too many things never try before..and i wanna try it someday..

wanna give away my "first time" hahaha..

Here's a list of things i wanna do.

- go to a concert(i've never been to a concert before)

- receive flowers ^^

- first romantic dance ♥

- first valentines (was usually with my mom during this day)

- first birthday with boyfriend

- first full-body-massage :D

- writing a song to a person i love

- first shopping with boyfriend XD

- first breakfast/lunch/dinner i make for him

- first swimming with him
-FIRST PET DOG!!

and lots of it. XD

some, i cannot tell u, and the rest i cant think of it now..

but i will add it to the list when i think of another one.

♥

i want....

2011-09-28T07:46:00.001+10:00

i want...
FOOOOOD!!!
craving for food. XD
i wanna eat dim sum.. egg tart, siu mai, har gao.. *droooling*
next time we go together ok?? pls pls pls???
so long never eat pizza also..LOL..
argghh feel like eating Malaysia's KFC cuz it taste better in malaysia..
i think maybe im hungry now thats y im craving for all kinds of food!!
wanna eat porridge too..
sot jor.. arghh...!!

i want...
SHOPPING!!!
saw those pretty clothes and summer dresses online, i wanna buy so badly..but no money yet..! .___.
Spent the whole night looking at them ahaha.. im insane.
i want pretty pretty dresses and bags, so long didnt go shopping already.
wanna dress up nicely :D hehe. it's spring, and soon it'll be summer!!
wanna dress up on the day i go back to malaysia too!! ♥
cant wait!!!

:(

2011-09-28T07:40:00.000+10:00

INSOMNIAAAAA~~~~!!!!!!

I was so tired last night but COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP!!!
shut my eyes but my brain wont stop working, and it kept going on and on it just wouldn't switch off!!
arghh help me T___T

Temporary Home - Carrie Underwood

2011-09-27T02:24:00.000+10:00

Love this song. Wanna sing it someday. :)
Hope you like it.

Today at work

2011-09-26T00:11:00.000+10:00

hehe.

Today at work, there's this little boy around 4 or 5 years old i think, running around the restaurant.
There wasn't many people tonight, and his parents were talking to one of our staff, i guess he was bored so he ran around playing with himself.
Then he saw me cleaning up tables on the other side, and i saw him and i smiled at him, then continued cleaning the table. Then he ran up to me and asked with his cute cute voice, "Do you need help??" Awwww.. soo sweet~~~~~ :P i just said "ohh it's alright ^_^ " and then he went off to play. hahahaha so cute.

Cam-whoring2 hehe~

2011-09-21T02:21:00.031+10:00

So my "next time" from my previous post is like 5 seconds apart from it.
cuz i am eager to show u the pics!!! XD
these were taken with my friends in the city a week ago..when we hung out outside the state library, where everyone passing stared at us taking photos for nearly 45 minutes so there were tons of photos from that day. hahahaha...!!! but i wont post all of them up, u'll only see some.
SOOOO here u go :P

"L"

"O"

"V"

"E"

"♥"

Love these girls in melbourne, we are getting closer and closer spending so much time together but im going back sooner and sooner :( so sad.
hope i get to see them again after i go back to malaysia.
lots of love. xoxo

Cam-whoring hehe~

2011-09-21T02:07:00.000+10:00

hehe..girls love cam-whoring.. and i have to admit sometimes i love it too. especially with iphone.
i don't have an iphone, but whenever my friends take theirs out for some "self-potrait" photo shooting session(a.k.a cam-whoring), i'll be standing beside them ho ho ho~~
So here are some pics we took last night. I love black and white photos.. or the type that looks like old or colours that looks like their fading away, hehe..

More to come. here are just some of our photos. i'll upload more photos the next time.

cheeerss!! :D

xoxoxoxo

what a night..

2011-09-20T07:41:00.000+10:00

Soo tired...i just reach home from friend's house doing some work and preparation for an event coming Friday.
Me and my friend, both of us didnt sleep the whole night, doing all those stuff that we needed to do, we're in a team of total of 7 people, but just me and that girl showed up(another girl showed up too but she didnt do much, played xbox with the guys and left early), the rest of the people (there were like 5 other guys but they're not in our team) in that house, all shouting and playing with their Xbox..

That girl and I, we started from around 10pm, didnt even stop to play or waste time.. spent more than 7 hours on those work til 5 something in the morning. TIRED LIKE SHIT!!
the guys came over once in a while to ask if we are ok, and helped us with some cutting(we're actually doing stuffs for decorations for an event). the guys played 5 or 6 different games while the two of us trying hard not to swear cuz we had to do all the work since they'r not really good with arts :P

Went to McDonalds for breakfast after that.. and now im home.. and i have classes from 9-3pm which is like..2 hours frm now.. but im soooo tired !!!! shall i go sleep then go to the afternoon class..or shall i go to class now? :( *sigh*

im gonna faint.. @_@

Durian paradise!!

2011-09-19T15:29:00.001+10:00

Last night at work, Uncle Jeffrey(a chef in my restaurant) took out a box of ice-cream and some cakes.
"Try some" he said, then a heavy durian smell flew to my nose.
Wow durian flavored ice-cream and cakes!!!
I never had the guts to try them, haha, cuz I never thought Durian ice-cream and cakes would taste nice,
I mean, i eat durian, but i always thought this combination is weird..just like how some people like to dip their McD fries into their McD ice-cream.. its..weird!!!!
But i tried it anyway, the durian ice-cream and cakes. haha.
"did u make these urself??" I asked.
"yeah" he replied.
WOW..i know he's good with cakes and desserts but never thought with durian cakes and he makes ice-cream too!!! sometimes the cakes he makes.. not so nice hehe..but shhhhh~~~~ dun tell him.
anyway, i tried.

The durian ice-cream...YUMMMYYYY~~~~!! first time trying durian ice-cream it was soo goood..
he made it so creamy~ and while i was enjoying it, i looked at him with a mouthful of ice cream and said "so goooood~~~~~~!!" and he smiled. Then he said "its the durian, the durian is very good" he said it like "its not my fault..its the durian's fault" hahaha XD
After i finished the ice-cream, i took a piece of durian cake too, it tasted like cheese cake, but with durian flavor..and its sooo creamy tooo!! so yummy~~~~
All my bad mood gone just like this.. hehe.
A piece of cake or some ice-cream brightens sad souls..
hehe XD

then after work when my boss's son drove me home, Auntie Karen(another chef, boss's wife) burped.. O_O
and the whole car smelled like durian omg.. THIS.. is just... eewww ._.

a couple of my favourites

2011-09-17T03:18:00.000+10:00

wanna share a couple of korean songs with you, maybe u'll like it maybe u wont.

the first one is slow/sad type of song, i love it~~~!!!
its quiet at the beginnning and throughout the song it grows larger and larger until it sounds so full..!!
then it quiets down again at the end. yes! it's one of my favorite!! totally MY type of song :P
바람이 분다-Lee So Ra (The Wind is Blowing - Lee So Ra)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJai3PkZl3M

the other one is sooooo freaking hard to find!!!!!!!arrrghhh!~~!!! >_<
its called Mareuseyu by Jaejooboys or Jaejoo Sonyeon.
:( i have the music but i dont know how to share with u guys..i've looked everywhere in youtube juz couldnt find it. so..too bad :(

비비안

2011-09-16T22:19:00.001+10:00

안녕하세요~ 나는비비안입니다 ^__^

Haha, went to Korean yesterday, with 3 of my friends.
I LOVE korean languange, and korean food, and korean guys hehe. XD
so we found out about this class, its free..u just need to donate some money.
But they only offer a few lessons, cuz this class is organized by a few Korean uni students, and they'll stop after 2 weeks cuz exam's near.

So we went to this class, it was so fun haha..(the korean teacher was pretty too haha)
And we started cam-whoring as usual Hahhaha!!! :P

The teacher asked if we wanna join them after class for Korean food next week.
TEMPTING...but i'm not sure if we're going or not cuz some girls dont wanna go.
hehe..i wanna be able to speak korean!!!

난 정말 행복 해요..
ㅋㅋㅋ..
사링해요~ ♥

♥

2011-09-11T04:10:00.002+10:00

i'm glad i found u ♥

My new friend

2011-09-11T03:59:00.000+10:00

Let me introduce you to my new friend, Ms Cactus!!! :D

Isn't she cute? haha..

Bought it this morning at Victoria Market for 5 dollars.

Finally a living thing in my room(other than me of course).

"Water it once a week and leave it by the window where it can get sunlight." the guy told me as I was paying him. Then i realize that the window in my room is very high and it doesnt allow much sunlight shining in :(

I guess the cactus just has to survive the days without sunlight.. like me.

Unless i bring her for a walk in the park or garden to meet her friends and get some sunlight and maybe picnic with her friends isn't a bad idea too.

Then i'll be the only person in the world who brings her plant for a walk.

And people will think that i'm crazy. .__.

Sorry Ms. Cactus i guess u are stuck with me. :D

Getting old~~~

2011-09-10T00:38:00.000+10:00

okaaayyyyyy maybe this might be a bit too much info.. but..
now my butt muscles hurt... hehe.

Nightmare T__T

2011-09-09T13:09:00.003+10:00

This morning i jumped up from my bed and my heart was beating really fast.

I had a terrible nightmare. It was so scary and so real!!

I dreamed that me and my mom and brother we were all in my mom's room,

and there were 2 lions in our house, one male one female LOL..

we locked ourselves quietly in our room trying to hide from them,

and they were in the next room.

and my mom's room and the next room were connected with a toilet. (my house doesnt even look like that)

So mom wanted to check if they were still in the other room, so she opened the door quietly to check, and straight away i heard a big roar and the lion ate her arm off as if it was waiting for her quietly in the toilet, expecting her. And then she was sitting on the toilet moaning, and there was blood everywhere.

Thats when i opened my eyes in shock and my heart was beating wildly..

omg so scary T__T please don't tell my mom this.

i was so scared to go back to sleep, cuz i was scared i might dream the same thing again,

then i waited..but fell asleep anyway hehe..

and this time i was dreaming of Vincent, haha, dreamed that he got home early from work today (he told me he'll be home late), and he's reading my blog!!! Reading and laughing and telling me it's very interesting and funny, and he always say "很搞怪", hehe how silly.

p.s. my legs muscles sore so badly after playing badminton yesterday, T__T

Man's Best Friend

2011-09-08T21:45:00.017+10:00

I like taking the public transport sometimes..especially the bus, or the tram..

where you can look out the window and watch passing trees, passing houses, and passing people.

It can make u think about a lot of stuff.

So I was on my way to play badminton with some friends today,

and on the bus, i passed by a field.

I saw a man playing with his dog.

It was a black dog, and they were playing with a ball.

Looking at them made me start thinking about friends throughout our lives.

If every friend was as loyal as a dog, then maybe we would live lives happier.

Dogs are loyal.

Their title "Men's best friend" doesn't come without a reason.

They don't have smart brains like ours, or maybe "complicated" is a better word to describe it.

They feel with their hearts, not their brains. Not like how we would evaluate with our brains.

They don't care if you are rich, don't care if you are poor.

As long as you treat them with all your heart, they can feel it, and they know it.

They'll be by your side when you need them, til the day they die.

they won't leave you just because you've turned old and ugly, they don't care how handsome you are.

Not like humans.

We sometimes tell people..you have to be careful when you choose friends.

Some friends can betray you and stab you at the back.

Some friends have two faces, they'll be so nice to you, and talk bad behind you too.

And i have to admit that no one is perfect, i sometimes do that too..hehe.

But i try not to. It's bad ._.

Anyway back to the topic. :P

So while you are trying to be careful when choosing friends, do u not notice that other people are looking at you and having the same thought too?

Everyone's so afraid of being cheated and so afraid of losing, lack of..hmm..what's the word..? TRUST.

Dogs don't care. They don't go like.."omg i have to be careful when choosing friends." lol..

They trust you, believing that you'll be there for them when they need you, treat them with all your heart.

Some friends take advantage of you.

Maybe you're richer, maybe you have more friends,

maybe you are hotter, maybe you are funny.

Some friends only come to you when they need your help.

and when they don't, you might be the last person on their list to call up for lunch or dinner.

Sometimes these friends won't even come to help you when you need someone in return.

But dogs or other animals won't do this. They are like your reflection.

If you treat them good, they will be good to you.

If you treat them bad, of course they will strike back.

Haha, i remember being so loving to my little hamster when i still had it,

and when i held it in my hands, he'd be so still and nice,

but when my brother tried to touch him, he bit my brother, lol!!

Cuz my brother had always tried to scare and frighten the poor thing.

So yeah, they wont go like "omg i'm hungry i need food, let's act nice and pretend that i like this person so he can give me treats". hhahaha, no they don't do that!

Only we humans do it, and we don't even realize we did it!!

We always put on fake expressions as our masks to hide our true feelings acting and pretending, so we can get what we want.

Our brains are far too complicated, calculating on how nice i should treat this person, trying to balance up on what we give and what we get in return, hiding secrets and lies so i don't "lose face" and thinking of wat good will i get if i befriend with this person.

This might be a bit harsh, but there's a Chinese description called “禽兽都不如”. It means "lower than an animal" or "worse than an animal". Are we?

Have you ever thought that..since everyone's saying that life is unfair..

Why do we have to be so bloody fair when it comes to friendship, relationship, or how we treat others? Don't you think that life would be much easier and happier if we stop waiting for wat we'll get..and start giving generously?

"What can I give to mother nature", not "i need toilet paper from the trees for my ass". XD

"What can i give to my parents", not "maybe a car for my birthday?"

"what can i give to this begger", not "OMG he stinks run away!"

"what can i give to my friend", not "hey nice shoes, can you lend me?"

We should stop thinking about ourselves, and start thinking about others.

Maybe then the world would be peaceful, no war, no terrorists.

Maybe the world would be a better place.

p.s. how did "Men's Best Friend" end up with world peace?

p.p.s. I am awesome XD HAHAHA

Just my luck

2011-09-08T21:35:00.003+10:00

Everything seems to be going smoothly these days, i'm so happy :)

i wanted to exercise, but don't really like jogging alone by the street out of nowhere,

wanted to go to the gym but afraid its gonna be expensive, so i didn't go.

Then now my friend told me there's gym in her house, and told me i could go there anytime as long as she's home, and it's free! :D i'm so lucky.

And also i wanted to learn Korean so badly, so i was thinking i could wait til i go back to Malaysia then i can study Korean there, having this thought that maybe the classes in Malaysia would be cheaper than Australia. But another friend told me about this class she went last week, it's free, u just need to donate some gold coins for each class u go, YESHHH!!! and straight away I told her i'm going to the class next week with her. hehe.

Seems like things are going quite smoothly these days, i'm so lucky. And lets hope for the best that i don't fail my family by the end of this year during exams. :P

I have to keep telling myself and believing that I CAN DO IT!!

I CAN DO IT!!

:D

2011-09-08T01:43:00.002+10:00

Arrghhh this song makes me so happy everytime i get on to my blog.

Banmal Song ^__^

Just wanna let u know. Hehe.

Please go download whoever doesn't have it.

YOU'LL LOVE IT!!

SLIM SLIM SLIM!!

2011-09-08T00:06:00.002+10:00

I need to go on a diet!!! :P

Im getting fatter and fatter omg.

I need to lose some weight before i go back.

I WILL HIT MY TARGET, VINCENT SIN!! blek~

no matter wat!!!

and i will think of more rules to add into our deal.

DEAL!!!

Friends

2011-09-06T15:16:00.009+10:00

after almost 2 years away from this blog, i'm finally back again, hehe..

a lot happened after i stopped writing.

I stopped writing because of my assignments and studies.

Became too busy after that, so I stopped, and now i'm back into writing again, i hope this time for long :P hehe.

I'm going home soon :)

FINALLY!!

I'm so glad ^__^

this is my 3rd year in Melbourne, and I survived loneliness and now i'm finally going home to reunite with my family and friends :D

but of course I feel sad leaving Melbourne too, afterall, I've stayed here for 3 years.

I need to take some good photos before i go back.

and also my friends, I made some new friends a few months back, and they are all Malaysians.

Kinda regret meeting them so late, and now thinking that I'm going back soon, i'm leaving my friends again. I never had a long-term friend. Except for Kimmy who lives in Singapore and sometimes Sabien who's in UK with her husband will talk to me, and Kingkong when he's bored. :) i'm glad. My other malaysian friends from penang, we never chat online.

People come and people go. Nothing lasts forever. That's what i learned.

From the day i went to china with my family and made friends, til this day i'm in melbourne with my new friends, I know that "friends forever" are said very easily, but hard to be.

Thinking that I'm going back to malaysia, to start a new life, it'll be a lonely road ahead. But you'll be with me right? :) You know who u are. ^__^

Here are some pics of me and my friends in melbourne.

And how i actually look, and changed. hahaha.

these are just some of my friends from the gang ^^

This is my darling Hwa Ling, hahaha!

This is andrew.

this is yee min.

and again my darling :D

Will update more photos next time :)

I AM BACK!!

2011-09-06T00:18:00.001+10:00

I AM BACK!!! :)

after 2 years ._.

:P

2009-12-16T05:35:00.003+11:00

Hey guys, it's been a while since i updated my blog, hehe, sorrie~!! I'm back again :D
Im spending my holiday with friends and family and im enjoying every moment of it ^__^
it's been almost a month since i came back. I'll be here til Feb :D so happy!!!
currently busy with year end camps, one is organized by my choir, a music camp. The other one's organized by my buddhist society i used to attend, so it's a buddhist camp.

:D !!! Love spending time with loved ones. ^___^ hope u guys are doing great. The weather is really hot, drink more water!!!

My band assessment

2009-10-29T01:42:00.004+11:00

Remember the band i kept telling you guys about? The class we had to perform in every Tuesday? Yup, we had an assessment on Tuesday, we had to sing a wedding set, so we all had to choose songs to sing for 35minutes, and we had to wear proper attire. I'll upload a few pics and a few videos for u guys to watch :P my friend helped me videotape it , hahhaha.

This is when we were practicing. I took quietly from the back of the room :P

There are 8 guys 1 girl in my band. Without me telling, im sure u know who that girl is. Ehem..
I'm singing backing vocals (backup singer)for most of the songs, but most of the time i dono wat i was doing, when the main singer was singing i was day dreaming XD This is our classroom, a bit messy please bare with it haha. Pay attention with the saxophone player, HAHA he's hilarious! My friend only recorded some parts of it, the BETTER ones are at the middle til the end of the assessment, but she didnt record, haih.. anyway, hope u enjoy.

My first vegetarian curry

2009-10-29T00:11:00.004+11:00

Tell u a secret, i actually LOVE shopping for groceries :P HAHAA. It makes me think of what to cook for the following days, and if i have free time, i love trying new dishes that i never cooked before. So today.. i passed by an asian grocery store, and saw packets of.. MALAYSIAN CURRY.

So i bought back a packet of vegetarian curry (cuz i feel like i'v been cooking a lot of chicken lately), and bought a quarter of a HUGE cabbage, and some long beans, and some ermm.. wat u call it, taupok. LOL. (pls excuse my dictionary, cannot find the right word to translate), and went home to cook. Oh wait! How can we forget coconut milk while cooking curry?! And yes i bought coconut milk too. And then walked home.

Cut the vege n long beans, and started cooking. Had NEVER cooked curry before in my life, but i feel that it's still a pass for a first-timer. What ya think? :D

HAHA.. well to be honest i think i added a bit too much coconut milk >_<
Oh well, it still got the curry-ish taste, so its ok HAHA.
Succeed!!!

一人一半

2009-10-08T00:15:00.003+11:00

Currently in love with this song. Sorry for those who can't read chinese :P
I've uploaded the song into my Mr Teddy. Enjoy!

一人一半，感情不散
一人一素故，感情才会久
时光累积，安静的泪滴
一心去追，爱那么可贵

这样的人，这样地等
无非是等个回应眼神
为爱反滚，不及伤痕
甘心为你一身都浮沉

这样的人，别笑我蠢
傻傻的心痛也不觉疼
就算天冷，就算难残忍
等你想起这没用的人

一人一半，感情不散
已经找到爱，为何要离开
　
已经找到爱，为何想离开。

Winery

2009-10-05T22:38:00.002+11:00

I went to winery last saturday :D but my friend's not free to send me those pics til the coming weekend.. ARGHH!! Will update my winery post this weekend. TIL THEN!! xoxo.

Kakak

2009-10-03T00:55:00.006+10:00

My grandma's house used to hav a maid.. forgot her name.. but she's really a good maid. I suddenly thought of her. She used to be very hardworking, and very nice, but she's gone back to her own country now. My grandma wanted to extend the contract.. but then she had to go back to her children.

The previous family she worked with treated her very badly. They made her eat stale rice. And made her work a lot, and if she's slow or watever, they wouldn't let her eat. It is really terrible to see how our own kind treat others like animals (u cant treat animals like this too) just because they come from different class in the society.
They'd scold her and not give her food.

Sometimes we would buy cakes or some food home when we visit my grandma's house, and we would offer her a slice of cake, haha.. a slice of cake would make her soooo happy and brighten her day, because.. she had never had cake before. And while she was eating it, she'd think of her kids, cuz they'd never tasted a cake before too. Sometimes even a small thing could make her really happy, and she'd appreciate what we did for her (although to us.. we'r just showing a bit of caring and sharing) but it meant a lot to her.

It's heartbreaking when she told us abt her background. Her husband left her with 2 kids.
One guy one girl. She left them to her brother (their uncle) and came all the way to Malaysia to work, and would send back the money for them, and sounded like her brother would take those money and stuff.

She had not spoken to her kids for some time.. and she missed them a lot. So my uncle gave her an old phone and a card for her to call home once in a while. Sometimes she would write letters back to her home and they'd reply. And most of the time after she finished reading the letters, she'd tear.

Once she was talking to her daughter and found out that her son left home without telling her, to find a job or something.. he was very young.. like.. 14 or 15.. and he was alone.

Sigh. Thinking abt it, i feel that i should cherish and appreciate more for what i have and wat i own now. Although i havent been really close to her, i kinda miss her..

LUNCH

2009-10-03T00:20:00.003+10:00

I was trying to cook myself lunch today.. was excited cuz i bought minced meat.. wanted to make a dish my mom used to always make. Steamed meat with egg.

So i called my mom, asked her for instructions.. then i thought.. "well its pretty easy" and started to make it. The first mistake i did.. i forgot to defrost the meat. =_="
Nevermind. So i left it to defrost. And i started cutting vegetables, n then fried them with garlic.
Then.. i came bak to the meat... and it was still frozen.. so i thought.. Hmm.. mayb the microwave could help. So i threw it into the microwave n defrost it. And it came out.. half cooked, half raw. >_<
And it had a weird smell.

I thought.. nevermind, mayb its just me.. and i chopped them and mixed an egg into it and steamed it. "5 minutes will do" Mom told me. I thought.. ok.. since my plate's too big to fit the wok, so i'll juz use a bowl, and i think it'll take longer than 5 minutes. It looked like this. And I waited..

And waited..
10 minutes passed... and it's still raw.

And I waited..
30 minutes passed and IT"S STILL RAW!!!!

I then give up on steaming.. and i was sooo fed up, and so i dumped the meat into the pan and fried with the vege n rice.. 3 in one.. >_< and it tasted soo weird!!

After 2 hours in the kitchen... i ate half of the fried minced-meat-rice-and-vege , and threw away the rest. It was... Yuck.

My cooking skills... haihz...

Bad luck?? Or its just me?

2009-10-03T00:06:00.004+10:00

Last night.. while i was sleeping halfway.. my bed suddenly went "BAMM!" n collapsed. >_< I jumped up and i was like.. O_O n tried to fix my bed. The wood by the sides were screwed, but the screws were loosen now, and no matter how many times I tried... the bed juz won't stay there, and kept falling. Like this...

In the middle of the night... fixing my bed (or at least i was trying to :P ) and then i decided to carry the mattress out n sleep on the floor.. the mattress was THICK n HEAVY!

Please tell me it's not me.. NOR my weight's responsiblity for this.. XP

Inspiration

2009-10-01T21:38:00.004+10:00

Do you ever sing when u're taking your shower? Of coz u do :D haha.
I do toooo. I was taking my shower just now.. but i wasn't singing.. and there's an "idea" suddenly started singing in my brain.. OMG is this called inspiration? Cuz i'm into writing songs these days..
My lecturer told me before.. that when inspiration come, you hav to sit down and write it down, or record it.. or else when it goes away, u'll forget.

I was in the bathroom.. taking my shower.. how on earth am i going to sit down and write OR record my idea?? LOL.

He forgot to teach us wat to do when inspirations come when u'r taking shower. :P
Anyway. The song grew stronger and stronger in my head.. and i started to sing out the melody that was in my head.. never had this feeling before.. and *Poooff*, there.. a chorus with melody and lyrics, done. Then i was thinking.. is this one of the songs i've heard before and it's juz stuck in my head?? After thinking hard.. NO its not.. it's a brand new song i've never heard of.

I hurry finish my shower and then grabbed my phone and sang to it, and recorded it down.
Previously, i was writing lyrics of another song.. and then only add in the melody.
My lecturer told us when he had an inspiration abt a song, the lyrics and melody come and flow together at the same time.. and there.. a song. By then, I was thinking hard.. Ha?? How to write like that? I cant write my lyrics and melody at the same time.. die.. i hav to finish writing my lyrics first.. then only the melody will come. But now i know.. :D wat it means by INSPIRATION :D HAHAHA im sooo happy ^__^ i've juz discovered something new hehehe.

:D:D:D:D

2009-09-29T20:42:00.003+10:00

I'm having my 1 week mid-term break now, :D hehe feels good being lazy n not doing anything, but i still practice my singing and stuff. And gonna catch up with some subjects too.

Victor came and talked to me a few days ago, :D HEHE he told me he's coming to Melbourne to study~!~!!! Woooo!!! At first when he told me he's going to study, I thought he's gonna stay in KL and study there. Cuz the other friend of mine told me he's going to continue with his studies, and gave me hope (cuz i thought he's coming to Melbourne, then i'll have a hang out buddy) but then he chose to go to the UK.. so i thought.. oh well, i'm going to be alone again. Then Victor came and said he's coming :D YAYE!!! im sooo happy!! ^__^ he said he's gonna drag me out of the house and make me his adventure partner HAHA.
"No more locking yourself in the room thinking of weird things d" he says. haha. I thought its sweet, but hey.. i dun think of weird things :P

I hope my blog can be more interesting. Hmmm.. then i'll hv more ppl reading it.
Anyway, hope u all hav a great week. XOXO.

Song writing

2009-09-07T23:18:00.002+10:00

There's this class that i attend, called Songwriting.
Last semester we had to write melody and make a song out, and this semester we have to learn how to write lyrics. SO as usual we have assignment for lyric writing.. and i had the perfect idea of a song.

I called it The Bird and The Fish.
It's abt a bird and a fish falling in love.. but they'll never be together, it's forbidden love, cuz the bird will never be able to swim by the fish, and the fish will never be able to fly beside the bird.
Brilliant?? :P hahaha. We had to submit our first draft, and let the whole class read watever we've done.. and they'd write comments on it.

I've only got my first verse done.. and it was like this. Don't laugh.

Verse 1
A bird is resting on a big tree by a river,
He looks down and sees a fish.
A fish is swimming in a river by a big tree,
She looks up and sees a bird.

-The End-

HAHAHA erm.. it was a last minute thing.. cuz i forgot we had to hand in our first draft that day, so.. friends will comment on watever you have.

i was so scared haha cuz i only had this much done.. then after 1 hour of commenting each other's work.. i got my paper back. Then i read my own work again, n i felt like it was kindergarten work.. ARGH i feel so stupid n childish hAHA.. but surprisingly the comments i got back were good..?? They said it's very special, and imagery. And very memorable. Hmmmmm... and one said I used animals instead of human, which is very interesting, he likes it a lot. And a whole bunch of stuff like that.

Oh well. LOL. I was stuck with ideas after i finished my first verse. Couldn't continue anymore.

vacation

2009-08-27T17:34:00.003+10:00

These days, my cousins and I are planning to go for a vacation when i go back to Malaysia for holiday. Since they all are already working, they can afford themselves, and we all came to a decision, Taiwan.

So, the 5 of us will be backpacking and self touring in Taiwan. We found cheap flight ticket, and also a very comfortable hostel to stay. Everyone was soo excited ^__^ but i was worried cuz i had to ask my mom. So i asked my mom, and her responce wasnt good. Which i think is normal, cuz i'm already spending so much money on my studies, and now travelling?!! So i talked to my cousins again.. we had 'conferences' every night :P ahhahaa, and we would report to each other on the famous attractions and cheaper flight tickets and hostels and everything. I told them to go without me, I said since this time everyone's so into it, they should just go.

Hehehe.. i love my cousins.. they said they're not going anywhere without me. :D

But i told them i can't afford myself cuz i can't even find a job here, i've been looking but i couldnt find any. And then my internet's connection was down or something, i couldnt go online for the rest of the night, then one of them SMS me to call her. They changed their plan.

So now, instead of going to Taiwan, we're going to Melaka XD

I feel so bad though.. cuz we've been talking about going overseas and travel together, this is like our DREAM!! To be able to go together. Then i asked her, 'why don't we go Singapore?" Dont know why, for some reason, they wana go Melaka. A'Famosa i think.. dunno..
They say Singapore's not worth it. XD but.. i think it is.. cuz, i wana go shop there!!! Bugis Street!!!

Anyway. So now the plan is.. Melaka.

cupcake

2009-08-24T01:48:00.001+10:00

i feel like eating cupcake.. :(
i ate a cupcake that day, it was so pretty and so yummy :) hehehe it made my day!! ^___^
and i'm craving for it now~~~!!! ARgh~~!

Friends

2009-08-19T16:45:00.003+10:00

Sometimes i feel that i dont have many friends.

No, i mean, i DO hav A LOT of friends on MSN, i hav a list of nearly 400 people!!
These are friends from my ex schools, since i've studied many schools before.
And some are net friends. (Some are nice, but i dont know why i didnt delete the shit ones)
And a few are relatives.
And a few are friends i made on the plane. ^___^

But there are days when my MSN was totaly quiet. No one came to talk, no one replied, especially during the times when i need someone, and no one's there for me.

You must be thinking.. dont I have real friends other than MSN?
Yeah i do. I miss those friends in Malaysia :( We used to hang out every weekend, and even during weekdays, we'd meet up at night for coffee or something.
But friends here.. dont make me feel like i'm wanted.
Maybe it's cuz i dont really talk much with them. I dont know what to say sometimes so i rather keep my mouth shut. They keep saying, "Hey let's hang out someday :D it'll be fun!!"

Umm yeah.. they keep saying this every now and then, since beginning of the year, but we never really hung out. No one asked me. And a couple of times they canceled the 'hang out', so.. yeah.
My closer friends in Aus are both Malaysians, but 1 got boyfriend already, and 'dumped' me. :P
One got husband and she's always busy on weekends. So i'm always alone.

The one who's married is my closest friend now.. but lately, i found that, she only cares about her stuff, and we never really talked abt me when we'r together. Always asked me to go to her house when her husband's busy and cant accompany her. And when her husband's back, I'm put aside. I feel like im a 'replacement'. :S And I'm always listening to her complaining about this and that. Sometimes i just feel sick of listening. Mayb i kept telling people "sorry.. i'm not good with advice.. but i'm a good listener.." And so ppl just kept making me listen to them.

Like the other day.. i called her to ask about the time changes for one of the classes. She didn't pick up the phone, and i sms her, she didnt reply too. So i called someone else, and found out that class is starting soon, so i rushed to attend the class, and i was a bit late, after class, I told her "I tried to call you but you didnt pick up" , and she said "yeahh.. i was in the lab, couldnt answer, sorry" and she didnt even ask why i called. And straight away continue with her stuff, " you know.. just now in the lab..bla bla bla.." and i was like.. =_=

Thinking back.. seems like she's almost always talking about her stuff.. hmm.
Wats my point of writing this post anyway? I complain too much. LOL. I'm pretty sure you guys are sick of my complains too right? I was just testing you all. Cuz seems like no one reads my blog anymore :P haha. write something on my chat box!!

Phew...

2009-08-19T16:37:00.002+10:00

I came home after class today.. and no one was at home. So after closing the door i went straight into my room, and because i was soooo tired.. I took a nap. And after a couple of hours, i woke up, n was hungry cuz i havent eaten yet, so I went downstairs , and found that the door was opened!!! I looked around.. it wasnt my landlady, couldn't be my housemate, I was so scared I thought someone broke into the house!!! T__T

But after checking, no one was at home, so i shut the door and went to cook.
Maybe it was me, I didn't shut the door properly.. but man.. it sure was scary.

differences in culture

2009-08-08T16:05:00.002+10:00

I'm here sitting in McD writing my blog, just like what i used to do.
I havent been to McD for quite a while now.. and just as i walked into the place, i heard Hokkien :P and i saw 4 old folks speaking in Hokkien, forgot what they talked about but it reminds me of my mom. I've probably said this hundreds of times in this blog but I MISS MY MOM!!!! :(

So i bought my brunch and looked for a place to sit down, and saw the table in front of me, and i started watching them haha.

It was an Asian mother and her little son. The son spoke perfect English, but I couldn't really understand what the Mom was saying the whole time. The way the mother educated the kid was 'westernized' (if there's such word) even tho she's an Asian. She was asking her son to finish up the burger. It took her like 10 minutes, trying to make him eat. He just sat there playing with his toys, and the mother juz sat there staring at him holding the burger in her hands. For almost 10 minutes.. and she kept saying "eat it, try to finish as much as you can" and other stuff which I couldn't understand. She said "finish them up and i'll get you chips" and she was so soft to the kid and the kid just didnt really care.. was playing with toys the whole time. She kept calling his name and he juz ignored her hahaha. But at last he ate it.

LOL it sure is hard feeding a kid here.

On the other table, I saw a pair of Asian mother and son. They're from China, and they spoke perfect Chinese. The son was eating by himself, enjoying the food, but he took out the vegetables in the burger, the mother said "eat it!" (as u know chinese speak loudly and so i put "!") and the son showed his unhappy face, and the mother said it again "put them right back in and eat them!", the son didn't dare to complain but showed his annoyed face, and did what his mom told him to.

Seee~ such difference in Asian and Western culture hahaha.

It reminds me of the books that i like to read, they are novels about Chinese and Western cultures, how the elder generations want better education for their kids and so they immigrate to a western country and now that their kids speak perfect English, there's like a gap in between parents and kids cuz the kids dont understand their own culture and root anymore.

Sorry it's just books that i love to reaad hahahha. These novels are by Amy Tan. Got addicted to her since high school . We had to read a novel called Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan and had to analyze the novel and talk about the novel and how well you understand it. Cuz I was studying in International school that time, a lot of westerners studying there, and they just didnt really get the story like we asians did. ^__^v And i got addicted to her ever since, hehe.

-viv-

Back and refreshed

2009-08-08T16:00:00.002+10:00

sorry guys, hahahha it's been SOOO damn long since i last wrote something :P hehe.
just a brieft update on wat i've been up to.

I had my holiday like almost 2 months ago.. and I went back to Malaysia,
spent almost 6 weeks there catching up with friends and family.
Celebrated my 21st birthday in advance and i had so much fun :D
Now i'm back to Australia and my batteries are fully charged.

wana view pics of my birthday celebration.. go check them out on facebook hehe,
i'm so lazy to put them up XD

i will update again. soon. HAHA. so, yeah. til then :P

XD

2009-05-07T02:06:00.003+10:00

hehe.. remember how I told you guys we need to perform every Tuesday in class in front of classmates? Yea this week we did songs about Australia. "I Still Call Australia Home" and 2 other songs.. :P
the first 2 songs were GOOODD! the band played it sentimentally.. so its slow n stuff.. it was beautiful, but then.. the third song OMG. I screwed it up :P It was perfect during practice, but then i got on stage n i blanked out on the third song :P

I sang through the middle of the song, then there's a bit where guitar comes in and play a bit of solo, then i continue n sing.. but i opened my mouth, n i forgot the melody! My head was blanked! I was soo lost..looked at the lyrics n notes n tried to figure out the melody but my brain stopped functioning.. all of my bandmates where playing the same thing over n over again waiting for me to come in hahhaa.. n everyone was staring at me!

My guitarist was standing behind me.. and he poked me frm behind n said "its ur turn!" OF COZ I KNOW ITS MY TURN!! I turned to him n said, " shit, I forgot the melody!! help!" and he sang me the melody but was so out of tune i didnt know wat he was singing :P i was so panic haha. We didnt stop though.. thank goodness the rest of the classmates( audiences) all tried to help out, n they sang with me.. LOL. Hilarious. I finally got the melody n sang the rest of the song.

After that, my pianist told me, "I played my part and I was waiting for you to come in but you were quiet so i looked to u, and all i saw was Ashley (the guitarist) poking at u slow motion and ask u to sing" LOL O_O thats funny hehe. I'll never ever do that again!! So embarrassing.

My formal performance

2009-05-07T02:02:00.002+10:00

I sang for my performance last week, Love Song, with my band.
We did pretty well, a lot of people loved it!
Im so glad!!
A lot of ppl came to me telling me how good I sounded and how they enjoyed the song.
1 guy even said I sounded better than the original, uhh.. that's a little too over :P hahaha.
But i'm glad ppl liked it, I was looking at my teacher the whole time when i sang, THANK GOODNESS he was enjoying the song, i hope i get good grades for it!!
I got so excited n everything.. then only i found that i forgot to bring camera to record it down.. =_=
nevermind. i've got another recital coming up this june, i'll definitely record it down!!
i can feel the pressure coming d.. in fact, a lot of pressure coming.. assignments, exams, and recitals!! need to organize my time d.

a video to share..

2009-05-07T01:59:00.002+10:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wCNxkNXakYE&feature=channel

this song.. i love it. These 2 boys are from the All-American Boys Choir, they're pretty famous, and i remmeber going to their concert when they came to Penang. This song is beautiful.
Reminded me of my mom, i miss her!! :(

ma mistake..

2009-04-26T00:28:00.002+10:00

Deeeep apology to Victor :P hahaha, he said he didnt introduce me the song Cry, he doesnt even listen to Kelly Clarkson.. must be someone else. hahaa.

O_O who was it then???

just some quotes

2009-04-26T00:06:00.003+10:00

I had been reading a girl's blog, her blog is really one of a kind.
She doesnt write abt her personal stuff, but she put up meaningful quotes and meaningful and beautiful pictures and some songs. I LOVE HER BLOG!

this is her link. http://kari-shma.tumblr.com/

these are some quotes frm her blog that i'd like to share, :D hehe.

“Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away.”

“if you looked inside a girl…you would see how much she really cries, you would find so many secrets and lots of lies but what you’ll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.”

“Saying nothing…sometimes says the most.”

ENJOY!!

i have a hot body..

2009-04-24T21:02:00.004+10:00

LOL

yes, i actually said this to my landlady. >_< without thinking hhahaa.
i was in my night-gown-pajamas the other day, n since it was a knee-length pajamas, i didnt wear long pants underneath it, cuz it wasnt that cold that night.
and i went to the kitchen to cook, and my landlady was there, and she was shock after she saw me, cuz she covered herself frm head to toe.
She asked, "Vivian, aren't you cold at all??" I said, "ummm, nope."
and she asked, "How come??"
I thought about it, and said, "I probably have a hot body..thats why."

.... (and there was a moment of silence)

then i said, " Ohh, i meant, i have a very heaty body, hahaha"
and she laughed.
Man.. this is wat happens when u need to translate chinese to english in ur head and forget to double check for mistakes. LOL...
U should have seen her face, it was hilarious! LOL..

I have a hot body ;)

Cry - Kelly Clarkson

2009-04-21T02:13:00.002+10:00

Do u guys remember when i needed to choose a song for my performance? Well yeah, at the end I chose Love Song by Sara Berellies. Victor introduced me a song called Cry by Kelly Clarkson that time.. he said this song made him cry. And that time I downloaded the song, and listened to it, it didn't hit me.. I was like.. Hmm this song isn't as sad as i thought.. I was wrong.

Maybe that time i didn't really concentrate on the song..
But last night, I was bored, and so i played and listened to all of the music from my computer.
And i played games on msn with C'Kay, we were having so much fun.. and then this song played..
and it hit me. HIT ME HARD! i suddenly felt so emotional.. I was like.. omg this song is so sad, and repeated it over and over again, to listen to the lyrics clearer.. and so.. i grew more and more emotional.

It's amazing how a song can change your mood so suddenly.. and so quickly. (mayb it's juz me, i dono.) But yeah, I suddenly became sad.. and cried while playing game. SO ANNOYING! I really dono wats wrong with me, can cry so easily. C'Kay's right.. i'm such a 'ham pao'. Really need to change already.

But yeah, the song is soo stuck in my head, i cried even harder thinking of my mom and dad (although its a break up song) and my family. I lost control.. n went really gloomy. But then thanks to C'Kay again, I was ok after that.

Haihs.. falling sick already, i think its becoz i dehydrate d.. didnt drink enough water. *cough cough*

My landlady

2009-04-18T13:36:00.005+10:00

She hates me!! I can see it frm her eyes, she's gonna kill me someday!!
Thanks to my friend.. T__T now my landlady hates me!
My landlady is a Korean who lives in this house too.
She's an over 30 yr old Korean lady and she's still thinking if she should study Master n stuff..
She's a very nice lady, but u know one thing..(im not being mean or anything) but i've come to understand from wat i saw from the Korean dramas.. that Koreans can get really pissed and show you their "cheh" face.. u know wat i mean? No?? Dont mind that. >_<

So yeah, we were fine until that very night... My friend asked me out for dinner with her boyfriend. So I agreed and went with them.
We went for bubble tea (*so nice!*) and chatted a bit, and they dropped me home at around 11 plus.. She hopped down the car.. and i figured she wanna come to my house, but my housemate and landlady were already asleep, and i didn't wanna make any noise to wake them, and it'll be awkward cuz my landlady.. she doesn't have a room to herself. She sleeps in the living room!! And so i said, "Umm.. your boyfriend seems pretty tired, and it's pretty late now, u guys better go home :) thanks for dropping me, bye~!" No reaction frm her.. =_=" and the bf saw his gf got off the car.. now he shuts the car engine and locks the door!! I was speechless.
Then, we walked til my house door and i said again, "Umm, u guys sure u wanna come in? It's not that convenient cuz people in the house are asleep.. and its pretty late."
The girl said, "Ha? Ohh.." but took off her shoes!! >_< ok i don't blame her. Maybe its my fault.. cuz she's not very bright, she's famous for her dumb.. uh, i mean, blurness. I should have just said, "GO HOME U CANT COME IN!!" (heck, wats with the guy for not being able to read my mind n drive his precious home?!) And the guy took off his shoes, too. =_="
I acted like a theif unlocking the door n walked into the living room.. there.. followed 2 unwelcomed guests.
Well, i guess if they insist, i'll just let them come in, and so i turned around n said "SHHHHH" to make sure they dun make any sound. And sleeping on the mattress in the living room.. my sleeping landlady~
We went upstairs to my room. I had NO idea why they just wont go home and let me rest T__T instead, the girl asked me to turn on the laptop n put on some Jay Chou music. We saw a friend online.. and webcammed with her for a few minutes.. and my friend's phone rang.
I swear that was the loudest ringtone ever. Is she deaf or something to need to volume her ringtone so loud? She talked on the phone.. never considered about those who were asleep. I stared at her and said, "shhhh!"... that was probably a not-so-affective stare.. she kept on talking loud.

At last! They'r going home. I sent them to the door downstairs.. and found my landlady sleeping.. on the sofa this time. SHIT! She saw them! She must have heard all the noise and woke up. I hurried upstairs n closed the door.

The next day, I was cooking in the kitchen. My landlady stared at me.. and.. she said, "Vivian, can I ask you a favor?" O__O IM SCREWED.
She said, "Can you not bring any male friend back at night when we're all asleep? You know i'm sleeping in the living room and it's awkward for a guy to.. bla bla bla bla"
I tried to defence myself.. but this was when she showed me the typical Korean way of getting pissed - the "cheh" face. >_< I shut up and apologized.. "im sorry, i wont do it again"
T__T i didnt wanna die, the knifes here are sharp.

I sms my friend after that. I was kinda pissed..
She didn't reply. Saw her online, but she didnt mention it til today. =_=
I guess it's my fault.. for not being able to reject firmly.. i need to work on that!!

friday nite

2009-04-17T19:36:00.002+10:00

LOL i took a hot bath just now.. cuz i had running nose, its pretty cold here!
I got into my pajamas n realized.. Geez.. i really have a special taste and the coolest fashion trend ever!!
I'm wearing a light green Winnie the Pooh pajamas (mom bought.. not me) more like night gown.. (those long big T-shirt looking pajamas that goes down to above ur knees) and wearing pink fluffy socks with white stripes.. =_= i was looking at myself in the mirror.. THANK GOODNESS i only wear this at home.

but hey.. i look cool ;) HAHA..

*ah chooo!!*

T__T

2009-04-14T23:39:00.001+10:00

ASSIGNMENT ASSIGNMENT and ASSIGNMENT!!!

T__T

i dono how to write essays n i hate writing essays.

especially putting citations and referencings.. :(

i dono how~~~ haihz.

back and alive..

2009-04-13T02:08:00.006+10:00

Sorry guys for not been able to update my blog for such a long time.
I'm back now.. and alive.
I mean, i've been here but now im back to writing blog again.
Something happened in my family and it struck me real bad..
I kept thinking these days.. about life.. that it is unfair, and nothing is perfect and all..
i dont blame life, in fact i found myself very lucky enough to have wat i own now.
I dono wat im typing here.. cuz im sitting here eyes filled with tears.. again.
I hate myself for being so weak. I acted strong in front of my family since im the eldest and i have the responsibility to protect my brother n my mom. I acted like nothing happened.. and smiled when i talked to mom. Cuz i didnt wana make her feel sad again and i dont want her to worry abt me. But im sitting here crying again.
I hate lonely nights. I hate the feeling that no one's here when i needed a shoulder. I hate myself for acting strong when i'm actually not, and telling my friends im fine and in fact im crying while typing. Im juz so messed up. My friend's right. He said I'm just acting tough, im in fact a crybaby.
I miss my family, I miss home, I miss mom, I miss my brother, and my dad.. I miss the old us. Before we went overseas. Before we went to Shanghai. We were happier then.

well i guess life is hard but things will get better.. i keep telling myself that.
I'll be fine, cuz i know im not fine now and i cant be fine now.
Yeah.. I'll be fine.

Confessions of a Broken Heart lyrics

2009-04-05T12:24:00.003+10:00

Confessions of a Broken Heart

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter

I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better

And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders

A family in crisis that only grows older

Why'd you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am broken but I am hoping

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am crying, a part of me is dying and

These are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes, your polo sweater

I dream of another you

The one who would never (never)

Leave me alone to pick up the pieces

A daddy to hold me, that's what I needed

So why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth, did you ever love me

Cause these are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

I love you, I love you

I love you

I....!!!!!

I love you!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth...

Did you ever love me!!!?

Did you ever love me?

These are.....

The confessions...of a broken heart

Ohhh....yeah

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

performance

2009-03-30T15:18:00.003+11:00

As you know, i have to perform every single week, but with a different theme.
SO, this week, I have to perform Christmas Medley with my band, and we hav to play 4 songs.
So they told me wat r those songs, n im happy cuz i LOVE christmas songs :D
1. Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
2. Santa Clauss Is Coming To Town
3. Jingle Bell Rock
4. Santa Baby

I LOVE those songs, and i know them well, except the last song.
I said ok, no comments, and i smiled happily :D
then i went to the library to download the "santa baby" song, cuz i dono the song,
wana learn it up, n i was so excited :D
Then, i found out, Damn, this is a sexy song... T___T i'll have to sound sexy n stuff, OMG!
They evil bunch!! no wonder they like this song!

LOL.. im so dead.